Trying to break bad habits …

So since my last post of 2014, a lot has happened some positive some not so good but hey ho that’s the way life goes right ?!

So return to the gym was hard and I am experiencing some real side effects of dieting I think and I don’t really know how to deal with it. Although I didn’t put on masses of weight during my Christmas break I was overzealous to get back into a healthy lifestyle … I cut back on the cals and carbs pretty sharpish and went back to my daily diet of a smoothie, a salad and a low fat meal with some healthy snacks …. I got back into my walking routine which I had missed masses, it always took me somewhere which gave me a sense of purpose again…. Had my kids and the teaching back and felt ready to start all over again … Since the 1st of January I have been quite ill – no it’s not a never end hangover – and to this day have no idea what is going on ….

I have been suffering with some serious nosebleed and I’m losing weight roughly at the rate of 2 pounds a week …. It doesn’t matter what I eat it makes me feel sick and queasy … I am getting a lot of abdominal pains also every time I do eat. For some blood test done last week but waiting for results and then might need to have a scan ….

Spinning has taken a turn for the worst having fainted twice at the gym now but again I don’t feel hungry and I am not stopping myself from eating I just cannot intake food very well. Asides from that I am feeling good and officially 160lbs so really I am 10 away from my target but my close friends are now strongly arguing that enough is enough …. I can’t see much difference if I’m honest ….

I’m a little but sad at the moment because I’m feeling as though I might be losing sight of being healthy and focusing too much on weight loss, I see bumps where no one else sees them and can’t acknowledge the losses even when they are written in black and white …. Maybe it’s work being quite intense with exams marking and stuff God knows …. I’m hopeful, 4 weeks till break and I will write more frequently maybe I can use that as a distraction away from weight loss and diet now and then ….

On this note I’m knackered …. Peace out

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Happy New Year !!!

This is my last post of 2014 and really it’s about wishing you all blogging legends a good one 🙂 I hope that the upcoming year is truly a blessed one for you all and that you bath yourselves in positivity. I love that transition, it’s like a fresh start and this year mantra is “I’ve got this” so that every challenges and opportunities that come my i stop shying away from and finally embrace to the fullest 🙂

I have no resolution but I have a few goals in mind so let’s watch this pace, so on this note happy 2015 to you all lets that last day of 2014 go with a bang as my wonderful ma always since I became a legal drinker “as you about to create that last story of the year with your buddies be good and if you can’t be good, just be careful” 🙂

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Why didn’t I just wait ….

So anticipation got the better of me and I checked my measurements and kinda wish I hadn’t ….

It’s not that bad but it’s bad enough that I shed a tear or 10 is desperation, why didn’t I just leave it …? Anyways not much I can do about it now but take that bull by the horns … I really dislike this world where you are judge and constantly judge yourself on the basis of numbers but I can’t get away from it !!!!? I felt fine fitted into a bodycon dress I have refused to wear for 2 years and had a tiny little bump everyone commented, I’m so confused ?! Did I dream that evening or what ?!

Right I’m starting from scratch again with those bloody stats and all …. Meal plan is progress in my head as I write, exercise schedule in place that will not kill my knee starting tomorrow morning. I will lose that last 20 pounds if it kills me !!!!! No PT this time round, I will do it all by myself ☺️ …

Do you what sucks I just ordered a whole bunch of clothes because I was feeling fabulous … Well charity shop you an forget this, my tagged items will not make it to you I shall wear them proudly by my birthday ha ha – lets the next 5 months roll on 😉 I am a woman on a mission !

December 2014 stats
Weight 167.4 lbs
Waist 85cm
Hips 109
Bust 98

Let the games begin ….

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The January 31 Day Ab Challenge

Let’s get started !!!!!!

Tone Up, Toronto!

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January 1: 20 sit-ups, 5 crunches, 5 leg raises, 20 second plank

January 2: 20 sit-ups, 10 crunches, 10 leg raises, 20 second plank

January 3: 25 sit-ups, 10 crunches, 10 leg raises, 25 second plank

January 4: Rest Day

January 5: 30 sit-ups, 15 crunches, 15 leg raises, 30 second plank

January 6: 35 sit-ups, 15 crunches, 15 leg raises, 30 second plank

January 7: 35 sit-ups, 20 crunches, 20 leg raises, 30 second plank

January 8: Rest Day

January 9: 40 sit-ups, 20 crunches, 20 leg raises, 35 second plank

January 10: 40 sit-ups, 25 crunches, 25 leg raises, 35 second plank

January 11: 40 sit-ups, 30 crunches, 30 leg raises, 35 second plank

January 12: Rest Day

January 13: 45 sit-ups, 30 crunches, 30 leg raises, 40 second plank

January 14: 50 sit-ups, 30 crunches, 30 leg raises, 40 second plank

January 15: 50…

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Here goes history repeating itself …..

So here it goes I start blogging, love every minutes of it, reading others sharing their stories, challenges, successes on that road to happiness and then life takes over and no more blogging …. 😳

It’s been over 5 months …. I am so sorry …. Work has been rather challenging this year as I got a new boss – one of those crazy makers and I am not using that term lightly but this is for another post really or maybe just for later once I have gone back into the blogging vibe again 🙂 it’s so good to be back and I am dying to have a look at those who I have been following and seeing their successes and challenges coming up to the end of the year 2014 😴

So really before I start rambling, 1st things first …. Merry Xmas Y’all a belated yet full of love, happiness and beauty one 🎅I always dread Crimbo because it is that time of the year when if like me you are very far away from your family it fails to always have that positive significance as you are imagining in all the little neighbouring houses people together in one room feeling blessed and grateful. I mean don’t get me wrong I don’t feel un-blessed it’s just that well I spend Xmas by myself and have done for the last 6 years and that’s cool.

My journey into positive body changes took a bit of a smack right in the fact following that last post at the end of August, I mentioned before that I was having trouble with my knees and generally feeling in a lot of pain when doing my 4 spinning classes a day, 1 session of PT and my twice a week body pump…. Well it turns out that my incredible journey into weight loss so far was happening far to quick and intensely for my little untrained body …. I was diagnosed and still being treated for a anterior cruciate ligament injury or ACL which is a pain in the backside 😤 My physiotherapist is awesome and we have made some brilliant progress where knee pain is at 2 level of pain in comparison to an 10 back in August so it took a while but I am so pleased with the progress.

I haven’t weighted myself since then to be honest, nor have I followed a diet simply because I haven’t been able to complement what I do with exercise – intense exercise seeing as I am banned for any cardio until January. Will update stats next time I’m log on after New Years and get started on my fit plan all over again 🙂 Freezed membership at the gym and full attendance to yoga twice a week since then to help my body heal, I always associated yoga with middle class snotty people who thought they were so cool and alternative and for that I apologise to anyone reading my blog who is Middle class and snobby but hey that stuff takes some serious skills right ?! 😮

So I will admit I’m still half chuckling at the mad heavy breathing going on in the room and the random moans every time but I am trying real hard to get good at that stuff … Why ? Because it has helped me heaps I can’t even begin to explain … The stretching, the relaxing, cobra, downward dog and warrior has been really central to my knee recovery also hence why I can hopefully depending on the physiotherapist go back to spinning twice a week starting the 8th of January yay !!!!!!

I find that yoga has also helped me listen to my body which I think is why I have put on weight since I have stopped, the weird and strange awareness I now have of my body is crazy. My eating urges are more than under control nowadays and I actually listen to my body, tiredness, thirst, hunger I feel i better understood nowadays which is amazing. Well I will be weighing myself for the first time following the new year so I guess we shall see 😉. Feeling positive though !!!!!! 😛

Well I guess this will do for my first return post and I am currently using the following to help me keep myself on track cayenne pepper pills only one in the morning, flaxseed oil tablet one a day and vitamin b complex and b12 🙂

Catch you later 🙂

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Ps – got inked again ha ha …..

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Showing Respect

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I don’t necessarily like ranting about things, but an article that I read concerning Keely Shaye Smith Brosnan really aggrevated me. This was the title of the article “23 Sexiest Celebrities With Ugly Significant Others” written 3/7/14 on Celebromance.com. I discovered it as a link at the bottom of another article I was reading. They proceeded to say that because she is heavy that makes her by default an ugly significant other. And why in the world when Pierce Brosnan can get any woman, would he settle for that. Oh yeah, and by the way he loves her anyway.

Are you kidding me! She doesn’t need me to defend her at all, but it is highly offensive to say that because she is overweight that somehow makes her ugly, and less of a person because of it. I get so tired of reading that overweight people have no place in…

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Ferguson: Ten Bloggers Speak Out

This whole thing has really bugged me out and still is bugging me out …. I just hope that justice prevails …..

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Many details about the violent death of Michael Brown in Ferguson, Missouri, remain unclear. What is beyond doubt is the intensity of reactions to this story — in the media and in neighborhoods all over the US (and beyond). Here are ten personal perspectives on this event and its aftermath, from writers representing a diverse cross-section of the WordPress.com community.

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Writer and scholar Keguro Macharia reacts with his usual incisiveness to one of the signature chants of post-Ferguson protests :

If “Hands Up, Don’t Shoot” is an expression of “humanity,” as one tweet has it, we must ask for whom that humanity is available. In fact, the insistent repetition of “Hands Up, Don’t Shoot” by black bodies across the U.S. might offer a less promising narrative: it might suggest the banality with which black life forms can never gain access to the vernaculars of the human.

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